Birthday Wishes

This year I am getting more excited for my birthday than I have in years. 21st wasn't even as exciting as this one. I don't mind boasting that I think I have the greatest day to celebrate my birth. July 1st. It's a strong day, smack dab in the middle of the year. Lots of things happen, fiscal years begin, laws get passed, Canada celebrates their birthday, too.


The 25th birthday is probably the last landmark ages of the 20s. I've been reminded constantly by one of my clients at work that I'm turning a quarter of a century. I'm happy to be making a big deal out of it this year. I'm taking 3 days off work to travel to NH, RI, and CT to see great friends and pretty much celebrate the awesomeness I feel about being me.

I have to say that past years I haven't felt so awesome. I had insecurities about my relationships, my feelings, and who i was as a person. These days when I take stock of what I have and who I am, I am secure in all of it. I live with my two loves, Matt and Chewy, in a beautiful apartment with a lot of prosperiety. I have family, whom I thank God for. I have a JOB! A real job where I tell other people what to do and make salary. I have a car that I should take better care of, but don't. I have my somewhat healthy body (that sometimes gives me aches and pains.) I have my beauty, my intelligence, and my faith.

I can also be thankful for the bumps in the road. This year certainly hasn't been easy. I've had my share of downs and crying episodes and near-falling apart. It seems that every time I fall I forget about the last time I fell and what it felt like. I haven't quite learned all the lessons I have to learn. I suppose that's what is great about 25. Being 25 says, "hey, I've been there, I've done that, but I'm not finished yet."

I feel guilty sometimes wanting material things and being sure that they will make my life better. I really want an iphone, though, the new iphone 4 to be specific. And I think it really would make my life better. I have never had a smart phone. I've always gone the free with the contract route. There have been countless times I wished I could access the internet because I'm either lost, need some basic info, or just really want to check my email to see if so and so got back to me. So Matt says he'll get me and iphone and I'm going to hold him to it, I'm turning 25, damnit!